Damn it

The world-famous bestseller. A heartbreakingly beautiful love story. My name is Carter Reynolds. I was born a scumbag and I will die a scumbag. I learned that at a young age, and nothing and no one can change that. I am walking on a one-way street of destruction, God have mercy on anyone who gets in my way. I hate my life. I hate everything, really. Until I meet the kid next door. The Indian-miracle-bug-ana. She is immediately repulsive. From the moment I first laid eyes on her, something ignited in me. She evokes emotions in me that I thought I was incapable of feeling. I don't like it one bit. When she looks at me with those big, beautiful, haunting green eyes, it's as if she's looking right into my soul. That girl brings a screaming fright to me. She's like sunlight and rainbows in my gloomy, destructive world. I'm sick of sunshine and rainbows. My name is Indiana Montgomery. My friends call me Indi. I lost my mother when I was six, but my life is wonderful and my friends are great. My father more than makes up for having only one parent. I'm his little girl, the center of his world. I adore him. When Carter Reynolds moves in next door, my life takes a turn for the worse. He's attractive, he's damn hot, but that's where the praise ends. He seems determined to ruin my life. He's rude, but when I look into his eyes, I don't see rudeness. I see hurt and pain. He seems lost. I should hate him for the way he treats me, but surprisingly, I don't. All I feel is pity for him. I want to help him find peace. The light that I know is hidden somewhere in his dark world, but he doesn't want a single ray of it. He's warned me over and over to stay away from him, but I can't. For some reason I'm drawn to him. He always refers to himself as a bastard. Maybe he's right, but to me he's more of a misunderstood bastard. Whether he likes it or not, I'm not giving up.